taking baby steps to diy bike maintenance

not being able to participate fully in protests aside, i am struggling (i always have) with finding my purpose of existence, in the way i do, in the context of the life around me. i am clearly overly privileged and very much a "mediocre" person. so what am i meant to do in this life?? what am i good at?? whom am i meant to serve??? how do i utilize most effectively the little skills and knowledge i have???

i think a part of the reason is that i am fortunate enough to be surrounded by amazing groups of people who spend every day doing something meaningful, taking part in the effort to change the way things are. grassroots or not, everyone is doing something every day. it's very inspiring and motivating, yet at the same time, makes me feel useless! hahaha. my personal issue i am working on. a lot of these folks are involved with grassroots social justice effort using bikes and cycling. they are all avid cyclists and the bike mechanics with hearts-of-gold. i often get invited to many bike related events, but i feel so out of place and ignorant that i am usually reluctant to go... perhaps to address this weakness, v got me this wonderful book:
which i started reading. it's super rad. i'm very excited to be learning something new, and catch up on skills and knowledge i lack. i want to be a good, socially responsible, diy cyclist and join my friends. i recently bought a japanese vintage road bike called lotus challenger (clearly mine's not a fixie like it's depicted here... nonetheless, it is PRETTY). i will post its beautiful portrait soon!